So, come this Fall, all of my children will be in school full-time.  For the first time in oh so many years, my day will be free of children.  Well, at least until 2:30pm.  I have been dreaming of this time in my life for years and now that it is finally approaching, well, I am TERRIFIED.   Years ago, when I was fresh out of the workforce, I used to say I would return to work when this time came.  As if a seamless transition back into a workplace were even close to possible now.   I expected it to feel a bit more exciting.  Instead I am left feeling like I am about to play the first round of a sport I have never played before.  I mean, of course I know what working is like, but things have changed in the past 12 years. 

 And do I even WANT to work again?  I mean, It has been ages since someone has told ME what to do, I don’t think I would be very good at taking orders from others.  If anything, being a full-time Mommy has definitely turned this gal into a control freak who likes to bark orders and luckily for me I have children and a husband who actually follow them. 

Sure, the extra money would be great and being able to help out with bills would be a huge stress off of the husband.  But would the amount of money I would be able to make up for what would be lost at home by me not being there.  How to put a value on laundry being done, daily home cooked meals and a clean house?  How much is being able to easily stay home with a sick child worth?  Isn’t it great that your kids knowing there will always be a parent around when they get home from school?

After plenty of debate and several changes of hearts, I have now decided that I have no freaking idea what I want to do.  I guess I will leave it to fate and see what happens.  In other words, if something good falls into my lap, I may consider it. 

For now, life is good here at home, and I plan on enjoying it for at least 6 more months!