So, come this Fall, all of my children will be in school full-time. For the first time in oh so many years, my day will be free of children. Well, at least until 2:30pm. I have been dreaming of this time in my life for years and now that it is finally approaching, well, I am TERRIFIED. Years ago, when I was fresh out of the workforce, I used to say I would return to work when this time came. As if a seamless transition back into a workplace were even close to possible now. I expected it to feel a bit more exciting. Instead I am left feeling like I am about to play the first round of a sport I have never played before. I mean, of course I know what working is like, but things have changed in the past 12 years.
And do I even WANT to work again? I mean, It has been ages since someone has told ME what to do, I don’t think I would be very good at taking orders from others. If anything, being a full-time Mommy has definitely turned this gal into a control freak who likes to bark orders and luckily for me I have children and a husband who actually follow them.
Sure, the extra money would be great and being able to help out with bills would be a huge stress off of the husband. But would the amount of money I would be able to make up for what would be lost at home by me not being there. How to put a value on laundry being done, daily home cooked meals and a clean house? How much is being able to easily stay home with a sick child worth? Isn’t it great that your kids knowing there will always be a parent around when they get home from school?
After plenty of debate and several changes of hearts, I have now decided that I have no freaking idea what I want to do. I guess I will leave it to fate and see what happens. In other words, if something good falls into my lap, I may consider it.
For now, life is good here at home, and I plan on enjoying it for at least 6 more months!